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So I decided to start a Twitter account. It will just be my musings on raising twins post IF and trying to balance career and family. If you're on Twitter and want to follow me, head over to http://twitter.com/TwinsAfterIVF.

Thanks everyone again for the kind e-mails and posts!
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 10:04 AM
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After much deliberation, I've decided to have this be my last podcast episode. This was a hard decision and I will miss talking with you all. But it was getting harder and harder to do. Nap times are a time to get so much done--dissertation, cleaning, etc. I also had mixed feelings about continuing to do this podcast after kids. The last thing I would want to do is have someone search for an infertility podcast and come across someone blabbing on about her twins. :)

I talk this episode about the kiddos turning one--it's a real time of reflection. I'm also getting ready to finish my PhD. So lot's of things are wrapping up--seems like a natural time to end this. I'm hoping to keep these podcasts up for awhile. I know the older episodes may help some others out--especially since there aren't many IF podcasts out there.

Thank you to all who have offered support and words of wisdom during this long journey for me. It helped me more than you know. And to those of you still struggling, I hope you find your happy ending very soon--with the least amount of money and needles possible.

To those of you who found your happy ending--I hope that IF becomes a distant memory but continues to give you the gift that it gave me--perspective and eternal gratitude for what I have. OK, crying as I write this and watch my kids play and laugh. Love to you all!
Direct download: Episode115_5-8-09-final.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 12:58 PM
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Another long break between podcasts for me. Things are going well here. Q and S are still growing like crazy and are so much fun to be around. I can't believe they'll be a year next month. I'm in the process of weaning from the pump now. Makes me sad but a year was my ultimate goal and I'm just about there. I talk in this episode about how the guilt you can feel during IF treatments has transitioned to a perpetual mom guilt. Also seem to be having some anxiety around my upcoming future--finishing my PhD? Entering the real world? Who knows!
Direct download: Episode114_3-23-09.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 10:56 AM
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Another month goes by but I'm still podcasting. :) I talk this episode about suffering from PTSD after a child gets injured (but is OK) and talk about being in limbo right now between getting ready to graduate and finding something to do after that. Things are getting easier and more enjoyable with the kiddos, which makes for more pleasant days. But it is still a ton of work--way more than I ever imagined. Dealing with yet more illness too. Ms. S has her first ear infection. And I also give my take on the whole 8 babies at once thing.
Direct download: Episode113_1-10-09.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 7:20 PM
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Well another month has gone by and I've finally gotten around to posting. Q and S are growing like weeds. I can't believe they'll be 9 months old soon. I talk this episode about how hard it is to live in 2 worlds- mom and professional/student. I also give you an update on our holidays, talk about dealing with sick kids, and share my resolutions. Also give you my opinion on this article written by someone who knows nothing about IVF. And finally, I talk about a new study showing that about 70% of couples who start IF treatment, have a baby within 5 years.
Direct download: Episode112_1-13-09.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 2:19 PM
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Another belated podcast from me. I sound like a real downer in this episode. I apologize. I am just feeling drained and have been fighting a cold for a long time. Trying to count all my wonderful blessing though, and get into the holiday spirit too!
Direct download: episode111-12-12-08.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 1:02 PM
Comments[2]

So I decided to start a Twitter account. It will just be my musings on raising twins post IF and trying to balance career and family. If you're on Twitter and want to follow me, head over to http://twitter.com/TwinsAfterIVF.

Thanks everyone again for the kind e-mails and posts!
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 10:04 AM
Comments[0]

After much deliberation, I've decided to have this be my last podcast episode. This was a hard decision and I will miss talking with you all. But it was getting harder and harder to do. Nap times are a time to get so much done--dissertation, cleaning, etc. I also had mixed feelings about continuing to do this podcast after kids. The last thing I would want to do is have someone search for an infertility podcast and come across someone blabbing on about her twins. :)

I talk this episode about the kiddos turning one--it's a real time of reflection. I'm also getting ready to finish my PhD. So lot's of things are wrapping up--seems like a natural time to end this. I'm hoping to keep these podcasts up for awhile. I know the older episodes may help some others out--especially since there aren't many IF podcasts out there.

Thank you to all who have offered support and words of wisdom during this long journey for me. It helped me more than you know. And to those of you still struggling, I hope you find your happy ending very soon--with the least amount of money and needles possible.

To those of you who found your happy ending--I hope that IF becomes a distant memory but continues to give you the gift that it gave me--perspective and eternal gratitude for what I have. OK, crying as I write this and watch my kids play and laugh. Love to you all!
Direct download: Episode115_5-8-09-final.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 12:58 PM
Comments[3]

Another long break between podcasts for me. Things are going well here. Q and S are still growing like crazy and are so much fun to be around. I can't believe they'll be a year next month. I'm in the process of weaning from the pump now. Makes me sad but a year was my ultimate goal and I'm just about there. I talk in this episode about how the guilt you can feel during IF treatments has transitioned to a perpetual mom guilt. Also seem to be having some anxiety around my upcoming future--finishing my PhD? Entering the real world? Who knows!
Direct download: Episode114_3-23-09.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 10:56 AM
Comments[0]

Another month goes by but I'm still podcasting. :) I talk this episode about suffering from PTSD after a child gets injured (but is OK) and talk about being in limbo right now between getting ready to graduate and finding something to do after that. Things are getting easier and more enjoyable with the kiddos, which makes for more pleasant days. But it is still a ton of work--way more than I ever imagined. Dealing with yet more illness too. Ms. S has her first ear infection. And I also give my take on the whole 8 babies at once thing.
Direct download: Episode113_1-10-09.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 7:20 PM
Comments[2]

Well another month has gone by and I've finally gotten around to posting. Q and S are growing like weeds. I can't believe they'll be 9 months old soon. I talk this episode about how hard it is to live in 2 worlds- mom and professional/student. I also give you an update on our holidays, talk about dealing with sick kids, and share my resolutions. Also give you my opinion on this article written by someone who knows nothing about IVF. And finally, I talk about a new study showing that about 70% of couples who start IF treatment, have a baby within 5 years.
Direct download: Episode112_1-13-09.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 2:19 PM
Comments[0]

Another belated podcast from me. I sound like a real downer in this episode. I apologize. I am just feeling drained and have been fighting a cold for a long time. Trying to count all my wonderful blessing though, and get into the holiday spirit too!
Direct download: episode111-12-12-08.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 1:02 PM
Comments[2]

A boring update from me. But boring is good right now. No drama, everything is good. I think going through infertility got me used to the crazy ups and downs of life. But I like boring and predictable now. I update you all on Q and S’s 6 month appt: they are huge. I also talk about my feelings on immune issues and infertility. In the end, I make a plea for you all to leave me some comments on the directions this podcast should go. I can’t podcast super frequently so I want to make the most out of each episode. Thanks to all of you who have continued to listen.

Direct download: Episode110_11-20-08.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 8:35 PM
Comments[2]

A long time no podcast? I catch everyone up on the past month, which has included teeth, solids, and sleep training.

I also end the podcast with tips for moms of multiples--both those who are expecting and those with new babies. Hopefully they're helpful to those of you out there with twins--and singletons, and triplets, etc.
Direct download: Episode108_10-14-08.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 4:17 PM
Comments[2]

Another quick post from me. Always hard to find time but the kiddos had a longish nap today so that gave me a bit of a break. On this episode, I talk about how fast a year can fly by and how it is strange to look back on the years of IF--especially when I have them all recorded.
Direct download: Episode107_9-16-08.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 3:32 PM
Comments[1]

Sorry for the long delay. It's getting harder and harder to podcast. The babies take up a lot of time--who would have thought? I talk on this podcast about my big babies (who are measuring at or above the 75th percentile for height and weight for 4 month olds--and that's unadjusted!), getting back to work, and getting out and being more social. And I'm finally starting to admit that maybe I'm a mother.
Direct download: Episode106_9-3-08.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 9:06 PM
Comments[0]


A long time no podcast? I catch everyone up on the past month, which has included teeth, solids, and sleep training.

I also end the podcast with tips for moms of multiples--both those who are expecting and those with new babies. Hopefully they're helpful to those of you out there with twins--and singletons, and triplets, etc.
Direct download: Episode108_10-14-08.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 4:17 PM
Comments[2]

Another quick post from me. Always hard to find time but the kiddos had a longish nap today so that gave me a bit of a break. On this episode, I talk about how fast a year can fly by and how it is strange to look back on the years of IF--especially when I have them all recorded.
Direct download: Episode107_9-16-08.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 3:32 PM
Comments[1]

Sorry for the long delay. It's getting harder and harder to podcast. The babies take up a lot of time--who would have thought? I talk on this podcast about my big babies (who are measuring at or above the 75th percentile for height and weight for 4 month olds--and that's unadjusted!), getting back to work, and getting out and being more social. And I'm finally starting to admit that maybe I'm a mother.
Direct download: Episode106_9-3-08.mp3
Category: Twins after IVF -- posted at: 9:06 PM
Comments[0]

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About me:

TTC since March 2005

  • Irregular and long cycles after 15 years of the pill
  • DH has 1-5% morphology
  • I have a short LP and low progesterone
  • Cl0mid doesn't help much (did 3 rounds, all with 10-11 day LPs)
  • Stim like a grandma despite very low FSH. 1st injects cycle cancelled due to drop in E2. 2nd cycle they upped me too quickly, stimmed too fast, and couldn't do IUI due to travel.
  • Change doctors/clinics
  • Lap or IVF? Decide to go to IVF.
  • First IVF cycle (June 2006), stim like a grandma again and E2 drops. Proceed anyway. Get 14 eggs and 10 embryos. Put back 3 grade A's on day 3, none to freeze. Start AF early as per usual. BFN.
  • RE does some immune/recurrent pg loss testing because he doesn't think I should stim like a grandma. Come back with APAs and ATAs. He thinks I have some autoimmune reactions against stims. We add steroids.
  • Second IVF cycle (October 2006), stim worlds better. In fact, I slightly overstim and have to coast. Don't get AF early. Still BFN. But 4 make it to freeze.
  • Consult Reproductive Immunologist and find out more autoimmune issues: NK cells and Anti-ovarian antibodies, which explain my problems stimming.
  • Consult endocrinologist about ATAs. Diagnosed with Hashimoto's. Found nodule on thyroid. Ultrasound reveals that it's big and needs to be biopsied.
  • First FET cycle (January 2007), easy cycle. Not expecting much.
  • Thyroid biopsy comes back as possibly cancerous. Need to have surgery.
  • BFP on HPT at 13dpo on FET. Beta only 30 at 14dpo. HPTs don't get much darker. Beta < 5 at 18dpo.
  • Break for thyroid surgery (not cancer).
  • Period and O pain gets worse each month after each IVF. Demand a lap.
  • Lap (March 2007) reveals Stage 3 endo all over everything and both tubes are now blocked.
  • 2 months of lupr0n dep0t.
  • Third IVF cycle-Part 1 (started on lucky 7/7/07). RE put me on a dose of stims that was way too high. I stimmed too quickly and was cancelled.
  • Third IVF cycle-Part 2. Going on now. Hoping for a slower stim and a lot of good embryos (don't we all?). Amazingly, IVF#3 gave me a BFP.
  • Betas:
    • Beta at 14dpo: 180
    • Beta at 17dpo: 527 (DT 46.5 hours). Progesterone up to 48.
    • Beta at 19dpo: 902 (DT 62 hours)
      Progesterone at 60.
    • Beta 21dpo: 1677 (DT 54 hours)
      Progesterone still at 60.
    • Beta 23dpo: 3420 (DT 47 hours)
      Progesterone dropped to 16. Back on PIO.
    • Progesterone 25dpo: 40.
  • Ultrasounds:
    • U/S at 5w5d: 2 babies with 2 HBs
    • Bleeding at 7w: U/S still shows 2 babies
    • U/S at 7w5d: SCH found (cause of bleeding) and babies still with HBs. One measuring 7w4d and 1 at 7w1d.
    • U/S at 9w (and first OB appt): SCH gone and got to see babies squiggling around. Both had hearts beating away.
    • U/S at 9w5d (release from RE): Babies look good with HBs but still measuring slightly behind (9w1d and 9w0d).
    • NT scan at 11w5d: Risk of genetic abnormalities is only 1:990 for each baby. Yay! NT scan took forever to do because the babies were moving around so much.
    • 13w appt with OB: Uneventful, quick scan of babies. Both hearts still beating away.
    • 17w appt with OB: Another uneventful appointment. Quick scan of babies. Tried to see genders but they weren't cooperating.
    • 18w level II u/s: Everything looks great. We're having a boy and a girl!
    • 24w Viability! never thought I'd get here. Still have a long way to go but very excited to be here. Had an u/s but didn't get a lot of good shots. Baby boy is 1lb12oz (67%tile) and baby girl is 1lb6oz (39%tile). Doc not worried about girl being smaller. Good news is my cervix is 60mm long! A world record. :) Glucose, Iron, and TSH all normal at this visit.
    • 28: Great u/s today. Both babies are measuring in the 50th%tile. Boy is 3lbs and girl is 2lbs 14 oz. Cervix still holding strong at 45mm. Babies are definitely getting cuter and chubbier.
    • 32w: Another growth u/s. Both babies are about 4.5 lbs. Getting big and cute!
    • 34w: Diagnosed with pre-eclampsia. Spilling protein and BP is up. Doc puts me in the hospital for monitoring. I am there for 6 days, released for 1 day, and then readmitted.
    • 35w2d: Start contracting regularly at 10am. By 10PM, more contractions and water breaks.
    • 35w3d: Q (5 llbs 11oz) and S (5 lbs 6 oz) arrive via breech extraction. No c-section and no NICU time.