Things are turning around--we hope. That doesn't mean I still don't feel like I want to do some kind of bad luck reversal spell or charm or something. But the car is being fixed and we're headed up to see our friends. And here's the gorgeous view of the mountain where we stayed last weekend. Listen in as I talk about the weird double life we lead while going through infertility. And also listen to my first attempt at being a DJ! I'm bored waiting for my next cycle to start. ;)

We all find ways to get over a failed cycle. For me, it was driving in our new car and looking forward to our trip with our friends. Well, both of those are messed up now. All is not lost. We are gearing up for a FET whenever AF arrives and I'm formulating a plan to make sure I try everything for IVF#3 (if we need it).

You guys rock. Thanks to everyone for their outpouring of support. Last week was really rough. It was one of those times where you wonder what the point is to going on. But we press forward. And as I press forward, I hope to collect more medical info on why my body is attacking its own organs and my embryos. Bad body, bad. I seem to have inherited some nasty autoimmune things from my parents. How did they manage to conceive and give birth to 2 healthy babies? Makes me wonder why I'm so gung ho on passing my genes. I got a nice surprise today too—I have four frosties waiting for me. Yes, 4 of our embryos made it to freeze. I'm in shock but feel somewhat skeptical in a way too. I explain why in this week's (very long) podcast.

A really weepy post from me today. Kept trying to make it through without crying and it just wouldn't work. So only listen to this if you want to hear someone whine and cry a lot. I tested this morning (16dpo) and it's a BFN. So IVF#2 is a bust. I feel a little lost right now but am going to enjoy the next few months off and then pick myself up and go into round 3.