Things are finally moving forward. I have a date for my thyroid surgery pre-op (no date for the surgery yet) and my period finally showed. I also scheduled a follow-up with my RE because, gosh darn, I miss sitting in the waiting room for 2 hours for my appointment. Can the heavens finally align for a sticky BFP?

Trying to get through a week after a failed cycle is no good. Trying to get any work done after a chemical is no good either. And why couldn’t the chemical happen before my trip with DH last weekend? Instead it meant a vacation of no sex, no drinking, no hiking—all for nothing. Well, I’m free to do all those things now and trust me, I have a good Friday night planned. Listen in as I talk about how overwhelmed I feel with all the different doctors I’m juggling. I think I need to hire a full-time patient advocate.

Thank you to everyone for your kind words! It means a lot. It was a crazy ride. My HPTs went lighter on 15dpo and then got darker on 16dpo. So I was excited. Then 17dpo, the test went back to barely positive. That day, I got my beta from Friday (14dpo) and it was only 30 so I knew we were headed towards chemical-ville. Today's beta at my clinic (18dpo) was <5. I was shocked it went so low so quickly. I feel like I made this all up. I knew today's would be <30 but to be totally negative just made me feel like I can't even have a decent chemical pregnancy.

I am down but mainly just feel worn out. I still haven't heard from the surgeon either about my thyroid surgery. I'd like to get that scheduled ASAP so it won't interfere with my next FET. Want to make sure we've taken care of the thyroid issues as soon as we can.

It's been a wild week. Started off with lots of good things happening--good tickets to the basketball game, good review on my journal article. Then we got the news of my thyroid biopsy and it wasn't good. Cells came back as 15% chance of cancer so I will need to have the nodule and part of my thyroid removed. Tested BFN 10-12dpo (4dp6dt – 5dp6dt). DH and I decided to book a vacation away this weekend because of the slew of icky news. Then yesterday, I saw a line. And today I saw it again. Am I going insane? It's so light, especially for 14dpo! I won’t have beta results until next week. How can they expect people to wait this long?

It's a new year and a new mind set. We had transfer on Thursday and all went well. My acupuncturist's office was short-staffed so I decided to skip the pre-transfer appointment I usually do (was getting too complicated to arrange a visit). This round: no acupuncture, no pineapple, sporadic bedrest, no stress. We thawed 2 of our 4 embryos and both made it so we have 2 inside me and 2 still in the freezer. And I'm already 7 "dpo." Hooray for a day-6 blast transfer! If nothing else, it makes the time go faster. Listen in today on how New Years Eve went and also about the thyroid biopsy I had today.